%0 Journal Article %T My dysphoria blues: Or why I cannot write an autoethnography %A Saoirse Caitlin O¡¯Shea %J Management Learning %@ 1461-7307 %D 2019 %R 10.1177/1350507618791115 %X In this essay, I would like to ask if we are concerned with writing about difference or writing differently. I attempt to present an account of my on-going experience of dysphoria and consider how I write about that experience. I reveal how my writing has no epiphany, is repetitive and in its characterless depiction of others is a two-dimensional, monologue that fails the conventions of an evocative autoethnographic account. My writing is ¡®bad writing¡¯ but what should become of it? Does a concern with style, whether or not over content, based on taste preclude some stories and different ways of writing? Should I be excluded from academe and silenced, or can room be found for a tasteless account like mine? I end my essay by provocatively owning the label of bad writing %K Memory and forgetting %K repetition and similitude %K transgender and transsexuality %K writing differently and bad writing %U https://journals.sagepub.com/doi/full/10.1177/1350507618791115